CPTSD Prototype V1

Haha! I don’t have a clinical allergy to the metal. I didn’t want to get into the nitty gritty details of my complex trauma surrounding gold, so I used the “allergy” mechanism to describe the effect it has on me. Trigger warning incoming! I won’t get into any deep emotions but I’ll give you an overview. Any kind of metallic yellow will remind me of how my family used to hold it like a false status symbol, they’d admonish anyone not wearing it, they’d shame them for not being good enough in their eyes. This reflected my own worldview (that they imprinted in other ways) that I wasn’t good enough. Growing up, that kind of symbolism stuck with me. Gold automatically means “not good enough” and “shame of ones’ own status” because really, they were putting down others due to their own insecurities. It also reminds me of narcissism, which my mother has in spades. When I think about having yellow gold around or near me, I start to feel physically sick. :)

I agree with all that Drake stated. As a Paramedic diagnosed with this disorder, I would ask that it be more plushy. Tactile sensations are where you truly succeed. The Insomnia Moth is no fun to sleep with. If you made two versions of the CPTSD, one soft and fluffy and the other exactly as the image appears, I guarantee that the masses will choose the fluffy version over the present.

Thank you,
-T

I’m pretty sure the hearts and bright pink are for troubled relationships and and hypervigilance/hyerarousal respectively.
Edit: just saw we have the same first name so that’s a lil confusing to look at, oops lol.

I think the color of the bunny is good, it could maybe be a slightly darker shade of teal, but if it stayed the same I'd still like it. I do not think it should be lighter/white. The gold is great, I think some small cracks on the back and legs would work well. The red and black on the ears and the broken ear is very nice. I'm not super fond of the white for the mask. It seems too sterile for what masking feels like to me. The eye being white works in my opinion, but not the mask. Maybe grey or black, or if it stays white looking a little broken or something. Overall I think the design works well for cPTSD.

I have just one comment: I'm kind of loving the pink on black inside the ears- kinda reminds me of oscillating in between hopefulness and despair- I would suggest a bit more of a chaotic swirling pattern. Keep those hearts, but also distort them a bit within the swirl, to really show how emotions can just be all over the place when you're trying to heal.